I have so much I want to say and I’m not sure the best way to go about this so I apologize in advance if this seems all over the place! That’s what it’s like inside my head sometimes and I get it, it’s a bit overwhelming.
(All photos are done by Erica Kirby Photography in Northwest Arkansas and we ABSOLUTELY recommend her for all your newborn photography needs!)
Alright, so Gene and I have been married 6 years. We met at the same church that Gene is now on staff of. Gene has literally been attending that church his entire life and it’s a BIG part of our story.
We love The Lord, we love learning more about Him, and we love growing together in Him.
When people ask us how many children we have, I find that a hard question to answer.
We have 4. But only two of them are living.
Let me explain.
After we had Micah who is now 4, we decided to try again for another. We were surprised that we got pregnant on our first try. I went to my first doctor’s appointment at 11 weeks expecting to leave with an ultrasound photo and a smile. Instead, I left with an ultrasound photo of our dead baby. There was no heartbeat. I was shattered. I still am. You can read more about that experience here.
A D&C later and a long time of healing we decided to try again. Once we got pregnant this time I had a harder time getting excited. I was drowning in worry. This pregnancy ended in another loss. You can read more about this experience here.
Then came Hannah, our rainbow baby.
I was diagnosed with antiphospholipid syndrome which is super scary when you google it but it is a blood clotting disorder. I literally had to give myself shots every single day of my pregnancy and then two weeks after delivery. It was rough, but it was worth it.
She is 5 months old now and making me love on levels I never knew was possible.
Children, they have a way of changing your heart.
So here we are, a broken family just doing our best to show the world there is healing and hope available.